Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Love will tear me apart

It's not easy being an eligible 30+ lad with excellent marital prospects. Every move I make is closely scrutinized by hopeful young belles and their match-making mammas. If I speak so much as a couple of sentences to a girl, I have to contend with that gleam of hope and acquisitiveness in her eyes and that could get very unsettling. And I hate to disappoint them so.

Who am I trying to kid? Im a single, lonely, teetering-on-the-hill man who has found to his chagrin that romance is not as forthcoming as it once was. Most of my old flames have gone and gotten married. Two of them even got married on the same day. Talk about double whammies. I've met girls who claim to like me, but when the crunch comes, Im still here- alone except for an aquarium with a few fish donated by well-meaning friends. Had a cat too but after a couple of nights sleeping with HIM, I felt uneasy so I gave him away to a little girl"

So what's wrong with me? Im a relatively nice guy with regular features. One girl even proclaimed that she loved my hooded "drunk-looking" eyes and my "nibble-able" lips. (check profile pic for proof of authenticity). Now I wonder, was it just physical, what that girl felt for me.

And there was I, standing on her doorstep with my heart in my hands. And thats the saddest part. I dont trifle with emotions like some guys do. I've been told that I should play hard-to-get to pique a girl's interest, but I don't want to do that. Im a simple guy. I like you, you like me, lets canoodle, and thats it. I don't understand the point of "I like you, I pursue you, you pretend not to like me, I pretend not to like you, you pursue me, you like me", by the end of which I'll be so confused by the whole rigmarole anyway that I'll probably end up liking your ex boyfriend and pretending not to like him.   

Sometimes the errant thought gets into my head- is it because I'm half and half? I try to reject that line of thought because its unworthy of the few kind souls who have deigned to date me. But I do think about it- do some girls go, "Rootless, nomadic Hybridmos"? It's true in a way-  but not in the way you'd think. My family moves around a lot and so, while i call Mizoram my home, technically I don't have a place that I could truly call home. Which is why I want someone that I could come home to, someone in whose homey embrace this "hunter, home from the hill"  (chicks dig poetry) could lay his weary (and extremely embraceable) body down.

So here I am, a romantic failure. I've been told, "We don't do that in these here parts" when I tried to hold a girl's hand. Been given a chilly reception when I crossed the country to be with a girl. Been laughed at when I serenaded a girlfriend about to go home (Admittedly, the song was "I00 miles, a 100 miles, a 100 miles" but it was rendered very feelingly). Been told by a girl that her intuition tells her that I was subliminally pulling away from her and that I was just minorly infatuated with her. Chick-speak for "Leave me alone, el creepo!" :( 

But it's okay. I've come to accept that the spirit of romance is dying out in the female species. And I'm alright (he's alright, he's allriiight). I just gotta get out of this prison cell, and one day I'm gonna be free, Lord! I now leave you with this little song from Glee. Not that I watch it, being the He-man type. And not because girls will start to identify with me for referring to Glee (chicks dig Glee). But just because, well, just because. (He-man types dont explain themselves)


virgochhas said...


yamuna said...

:D :D...You think a lot...

Calliopia said...

Er.. do you have a copyright on this post? Because I might want to plagiarise all this someday to make people laugh too. Kidding apart, not to worry, kiddo, sit back and enjoy the scenery because you could now be a gently balding, pot-bellied, lonely though married, henpecked househusband, instead of a gently balding, pot-bellied, lonely bachelor. Love will come and Miss Right will too. Erm.. have you ever considered that maybe she's just not born yet? :D

illusionaire said...

Beautiful! Extremely written well. POW'd. You are so wasting your time over there in Conv.

Anonymous said...

Why so glum, dawg? Remember, we males are like our poison, we age gracefully.. and love is where you find it... it will find you. (Being poetic n sich!)
And Plus point for the ladies, you really pull your own leg, old-school style! Respect!
Well, Happy Belated New Year, and may you fare better this year! Cheers!

aduhi said...

This may not make you feel any better, but I think it makes an appropriate soundtrack.

Perfectly Lonely - John Mayer:
Had a little love, but I spread it thin
Falling in her arms and out again
Made a bad name for my game around town
Tore up my heart, and shut it down

Nothing to do
Nowhere to be
A simple little kind of free
Nothing to do
No one but me
And that's all I need

I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely (Yeah)
'Cause I don't belong to anyone
Nobody belongs to me

I see friends around from time to time
When their ladies let them slip away
And when they ask me how I'm doing with mine
This is always what I say

Nothing to do
Nowhere to be
A simple little kind of free
Nothing to do
No one to be
Is it really hard to see

Why I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely (Yeah)
'Cause I don't belong to anyone
Nobody belongs to me

And this is not to say
There never comes a day
I'll take my chances and start again
And when I look behind
On all my younger times
I have to thank the wrongs that led me to a love so strong

I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely
I'm perfectly lonely (Yeah)
'Cause I don't belong to anyone
Nobody belongs to me

Fonz_D said...

Delhi te i rawn zin te kha ani sia awwwww huissssss....i ziak tha hle mai ..ten Gf's to ya

Mimihrahsel said...

Comments ho hi i reply loh hmel sia..hehe. anyway, ziak thiam thin mange.. Love will find you, A ram leh a felna i zawng hmasa lo aniang :) Tunlai chu ka thupui ania, then, God will give you the rest :)


Same here...ka upa tulh tulh a, nupui neih hreh telh telh mai nia. Tin, mi hian min lo notice chiam lo mahse, keimah hian ka hlim tawk khawp mai...ka worry lohna lam tak a ni...!!

Mos-a said...

@virgo & yamuna: Yeah okay calm down.

@Callio: You are free to use this post as and where you need to. Considered that she's not born yet? yes of course: If hollywood stars like Jack Nick can date women 30 years younger than them why can't I.. only thing is ill have to turn 50 or 60 first!

@Illu: er uh muah thank you.

@blackest: Hah not really glum. just posted in jest. I actually have a harem to choose from but sometimes the king prefers only girl from that harem to be his wife
Yeah girls do dig a guy with a sense of humour etc. Happy Chinese New Year!

@Aduhi: John Mayer chu i duh ve maw.John makes even the worst things better even if its only to relate to the lyrics!

@Fonz- Engmah hi a thlawh hlei nem :) .

@Mimin: reply dawn e. ka khawl phawt alawm. 1 te te reply te chu...

Mi ramah nula felna tam deuhna ah ka zawng a ka hmu reng alawm. oh!

@Pu Epis: Neih hreh lamah ka lo ngai lova. Duhtui ka ti zawk :D

Mahni hian hlim tho mah ila.. kawng han kal vela inngaizawng in kai diah diah hmuh hi chuan...

benjamin rualthanzauva said...

Dedicated to all in the same place. Thanks for helping your fellow kind :)
- Sandman

lal said...

ziak tha hle mai...mipa blog ah hian ka commetn ngailo ania unless tlema an effiminate loh chuan eg. illusionaire ....ka in identify ve lek lek alawm le...


Jerusha said...

How depressing :( I was reading your post and at the same time my radio wailed - well since my baby left me, I found a new place to dwell, it's down at the end of lonely make me sooo lonnelyy, I get soo loneellyy I could dieee...

haha and I cried laughing!

toy soldier said...

Star i nei em

Aw chuan "A" ah kal rawh.
Ai chuan "B" ah kal rawh.

A: Bem rawh. Bialpa a neih pawn ai a tih hma loh chu bem raw pip. A duh ngang loh che chuan B ah kal rawh
B: Star thar zawng rawh. Hmangaihna hi nawrluih theih, AN TI. Chuan, "A" ah kal rawh.

Trak tla ang chhiau hmangaihna hi chu a vang ltk, mahni lam thawh hi a ngai, hihi

Sawi ta treuh a,


toy soldier said...

trek tla ang chhuai*

diary said...

Boy, you write so well! And you should have stuck with the girl you came to visit in Delhi. The second one I mean. Hmangaihna hi chu i la na ve a ni, vawihnih lai Delhi ah pawh i rawn zin phah ve a, hmeichhia lah chu a hrang ve

illusionaire said...

diary's comment: Like!


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Anonymous said...

Found someone yet?